Dear Mail Man, Please make sure this gets to the right hands.

Dear Hubsy,
I just thought I would send some updates your way. I'm doing really well right now. I'm up to my ears in school work. When I'm not studying or in class, I am at the High School Basketball games supporting my father, as he is an assistant coach, or getting up way to early to watch my little brothers play junior jazz. Of course, by "watch" I mean sit with my biggest fans, ranging in ages from 4 to 9. Teaching them cheers (ugh, don't judge me for that darling. I promise to brainwash our girls into thinking cheer leading is lame). As for my social life, it still ceases to exist, which is of course by choice, because why else would a 20 year old single female be living in Monticello, Utah?
It's officially been a year now, since I had a boyfriend. It's even been a year since I went on a date. I've awkwardly turned down a few here and there and not felt a bit of remorse for it. I haven't been boycotting a social life to avoid you. It's not that I am not excited to meet you. I think about you every day. I just want to be careful. And I just want to be ready for you. I am so scared that if I have my heart crushed one more time, I will stop wanting you. I fear my eyes will be so black and blue and swollen from previous relationships that I wont be able to see you when you do come along.
But, I'm making progress. Last night, I accepted a date. In fact, I wanted this person to ask me on a date. And he did. And I was excited. Isn't that great hubsy? I'm healing. I think the reason I am so open to this guy, is because he is growing up to be everything I know you are growing up to be. He doesn't have to be "you" but I know he is safe. Safe meaning, he wouldn't break my heart. And he wouldn't belittle me in ANY way. And he would respect me, and he would only let himself fall in love with me if it was what the Lord had in mind for us. And, the only person he would love more then me if he did decide to fall in love, would be the Lord. And I would trust him. And we would be so happy.
I'm going on a date tonight... and I am excited about it. And you should be excited too hubsy, because this really is a big step for us. For me, in preparation for you.
Continue to let the spirit guide you through out your life hubsy. Read your scriptures, say your prayers, and nothing can possibly go wrong.
I can't wait for the day when I realize I love you with all my heart,
Molly