Madison and Molly

Good Music

2012-02-05T00:09:00.003-07:00

I forgot how much I really do love good music. Ever since I had my wonderful baby girl, I haven't spent much time listening to music I love. I love this.

Bon Iver - Blood Bank

"If I'm not between a 3 and a 7 on the emotional scale, I'm crying."

2012-02-01T21:57:00.001-07:00

This video just made my whole day.

My boyfriend is tuuuute

2012-01-21T20:31:00.003-07:00

He wanted so badly to be good at this.....

2011-12-17T01:36:00.003-07:00

http://youtu.be/8mwcYefo9fc

Just got done watching Aviator, and I got really interested in Katherine Hepburn. And I found that she was in the movie "Little Women" 1933. I love that movie, but I don't know if I have seen that one. She is such an interesting lady, who did some spectacular things and dated Howard Hughes who is spectacular, and crazy.

Music Snob

2011-12-09T10:17:00.005-07:00

I know that I should be happy for my favorite musicians when they make it big. But I never am. In fact, it's really an upsetting ordeal for me... almost as tragic as the time Madi got married. I just get really attached. And I can't stand sharing great music with stupid people that don't deserve to hear it.
If you love Nickelback, you should continue to love Nickelback....and Hinder too.
But you're not allowed to love Adele. It's just wrong.
She was mine. I didn't give my permission for this to happen, and I feel like she betrayed me.
I realize that Florence is already a big deal across the pond. But I can hardly think about the fact that her music has landed some pretty big movies... including... a Twilight film. Barf.
Yes, this really, REALLY upsets me. Even more than Adele's rise to stardom. Florence may not know this, but she is my best friend. And I don't want to share her, dammit.
But... if I DO have to share her, I want the whole world to know, she was mine... first.

Bird Fever

2011-12-04T20:44:00.004-07:00

I am completely addicted to this stupid, stupid game.

Tiny Wings.

DON'T download it people.

I'm serious. It's the biggest waste of time.

I've got finals week coming up and pretty much all I've been doing to prepare is.....

Crap.

2011-12-03T21:45:00.003-07:00

Molly finally came to visit me!! And has now officially met Kendal, they got along great. This fun adventure made me miss having my best friend live near by, like in the bed next to me seeing as how we were roommates. I miss you molls!

Thanksgiving was so wonderful that Kendal decided to celebrate and start crawling!! I'm so proud of her. Although it sucks now because she is constantly getting into stuff, I need to baby-proof our house now.

All in all, Thanksgiving was so great, but Black Friday was even better because I got to hang out with Molls.

May The Odds Be Ever In Your Favor

2011-11-15T23:32:00.005-07:00

Overall, I enjoyed the Hunger Games series. I do wish I hadn't ever read Mockingjay. I was disappointed with the way that went. Mostly because I'm a sucker for a cheesy perfect ending.

I was absolutely shocked when my little brother said he was reading the series in school last year (7th grade). In my opinion the books are just much too heavy for kids. But so was The Giver by Lois Lowry. Is anybody else like me scarred for life? I still have nightmares...

Anyways, I stumbled upon this teaser tonight and it looks like the movie is very well done. I'm excited to see it.

A Laugh

2011-11-08T19:14:00.000-07:00

Vera and Me

2011-11-07T17:42:00.005-07:00

I've been drooling over this Vera Bradley bag for over a month now.

I want it! I need it! I can't live without it!

My mum says it's not right for the winter season. But what is right?!!
I've been searching for the perfect bag for weeks now and nothing stands out besides that damn Vera Bradley bag.
My current bag, which is also Vera Bradley, has been so perfect. It's been by my side through a lot of tough times.
I know this just sounds silly. Honestly though, I am so attached to that bag. It's hard to face the fact that it needs to be replaced. And I think the least painful way of going about replacing it is to stick with my girl Vera.

So screw the old-fashioned rules of fashion. I'm getting the bag.

Just kidding. I forgot about that $725.15 I just forked over for a car repair.

I suppose I'll just keep drooling.
Maybe I can make it mine in the spring... When it's in season... NOT that I care!

And it's hard to dance with the devil on your back...

2011-11-04T20:22:00.004-06:00

I love Florence and the Machine. I love the new album Ceremonials. And I LOVE this new single.

Isn't Florence Welch such a strange beauty? I am totally mesmerized by her. I can't decide whether she is way ahead of her time or if she is vintage-glamour. I guess it doesn't matter. It's her voice and her music that really take my breath away.

Happy Halloween!!

2011-10-29T17:40:00.000-06:00

poor me.

2011-10-27T16:16:00.013-06:00

Yesterday, when I returned home from school, I cried.
I cried... and cried... and cried... till bedtime.
Then at school today, I cried some more.
School is HARD. The nursing program is GRUELING.
I've been feeling really sorry for myself. And eating my feelings this afternoon felt SO good.

Today my nursing instructor said to us,
"You all need to quit being so negative. Start looking at the glass half full!"
And I couldn't help it... my response: "BUT THIS GLASS IS EMPTY!!!"
I could see the disappointment on her face. And as angry as I was at her for a bazillion reasons, It made me stop and think...

In less than one year, this will all be over. I will be a registered nurse. That's freaking cool. I will be independent, and I will have become a bigger person (hopefully only in a metaphoric sense). And I will have a whole new set of worries and frustrations. And that's okay. Because that's life. And feeling sorry for myself will get me nowhere. Happiness is a choice. People that think of happiness as a future destination never ever get there. Happiness is today. Right now.

When asked “What thing about humanity surprises you the most?”, the Dalai Lama answered: “Man. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived.”

Madi is a terrible Blogger

2011-10-17T19:48:00.003-06:00

...Even more terrible than me. So I had to post this picture of Baby Kendal because she's adorable, and her baby toesies are adorable, and her dress is adorable, and her hair flower is adorable.

Sneak Your Dog to School Day

2011-10-17T19:47:00.003-06:00

My perfect Ruby being perfect. At school.

La Chevelure

2011-10-14T14:37:00.006-06:00

So back when I was living up north in Provo, my friend Alysse, with beautiful long blonde hair, was asked to be in an independent short film.
It was called "La Chevelure" which is french for "The hair". The film is based on a short story written by Guy de Maupassant, about a man who finds a long lock of hair inside of an antique dresser. He begins to imagine the woman that the hair once belonged to and it grows into an obsession that drives him mad. So....it's kind of like a modern Edgar Allen Poe story.
Alysse played the faceless woman of this mad-man's dreams.
They needed extras for a scene and so Alysse invited us. In the scene, the man's obsession has reached a new level when he thinks he sees the woman at a social event. I'm sure that poor Alysse couldn't have had much fun standing/sitting still the whole time with her hair covering her face.
But the rest of us really had a blast.
I never did see the film, and I always wondered if it was ever finished or entered into any festivals. I googled it today and found out that it was finished, and it took 2nd place in the short films category of the 2009 LDS Film Festival. So basically, I'm famous!
I couldn't find the full 17 min. video online, but I did find a trailer on youtube. See if you can spot me!! :)

I hate Winter...

2011-10-07T15:26:00.004-06:00

I absolutely hate it. I hate it when the skies are gloomy. I hate it when the skies are clear but the sun beats down on the white snow and blinds me. I hate having a runny nose. I hate how winter strips my skin of any moisture it has. I hate how quickly it makes my smooth legs turn prickly. I hate how it takes over my hands and legs and I can hardly make use of them. I hate how it makes my ears ache inside. I hate walking out to my car on bitter cold early mornings. I hate scraping the frost and snow off of my windows. I hate the claustrophobic feeling I get when I bundle up in my coat, scarf, gloves, and earmuffs. I hate how I can't breathe in that cold winter air, but if I tuck my face inside of my scarf I feel like I'm suffocating. I hate how hard it is to leave my warm bed in the morning. I hate how our stupid fireplace turns everything in our house black. I hate building fires when my frozen hands can hardly strike a match. I hate hot chocolate. I hate tripping over all of my brothers snow gear all winter long. I hate shoveling the backyard so that Ruby doesn't get lost in the snow when she goes out to potty. I hate the fear of slipping on the ice. I hate driving in a snow storm. I hate the stress I get when I drive on icy and slushy roads. I hate how winter makes me late to everything. I hate winter. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. I pray that this is my very last Monticello winter.

Moral Dilemma

2011-09-20T18:54:00.005-06:00

So I want a new pair of Toms. But I've been hesitant to make the buy because I can't decide if they are appropriate for the cold weather seasons.

What do you think?

I really like these petal pink Toms from the "wedding line"... but I think my wardrobe needs a pair of cream or white colored shoes.

*Post Edit: That stupid little poll thingy made the page load soooooooo sloooooooowly. So never mind. But you should still comment and give me your two cents.

Puppy Play All Day!!

2011-09-19T15:38:00.005-06:00

After a long day at school, all I want to do when I come home is snuggle up with Ruby Tuesday and rest. Unfortunately, Ruby spends all those lonely hours sitting on her chair in the living room with her head draped over the armrest so that she can watch for her loved ones. And when one of us finally returns home, all she really wants to do is play. Can I blame her? Nope. She's perfect.

Love these Weepies oldies..

2011-09-17T01:00:00.003-06:00

I just can't take how beautiful you are.

2011-09-09T23:22:00.001-06:00

This is a totally normal thing to do...

2011-09-04T00:14:00.004-06:00

I REALLY want a blue-eyed baby someday.
Chanting: "CHASE! CHASE! CHASE! CHASE!"

I've also researched (googled) the probability of Chase and I having twins... with the hope that our chances would increase because Chase has a twin sister. Unfortunately, the male's genes and family history do not have any affect on those odds:( Again, totally normal. It isn't at all strange that I daydream on a daily basis about my blue-eyed twins....

Fish and Chips

2011-09-01T02:00:00.002-06:00

Whistling this tune

gets me through my clinical rotations.

Music for a Rainy Day

2011-08-22T22:12:00.002-06:00

P90X

2011-08-17T15:01:00.002-06:00

William and I are doing P90X, and uncle Tony (I call him uncle Tony) is kicking our butts!! We are on week 4, woo hoo!

My favorite thing about the workouts are the protein shakes we make right after, so good!

1 cup blueberries

1 cup strawberries

2 cups of milk

2 scoops of protein

8 cubes of ice

and wah-lah an amazing stinking shake!! mmm

Harrison going on his Mission

2011-08-17T14:43:00.003-06:00

My brother Harrison is leaving for the MTC this next Wednesday!! I'm so sad but so happy at the same time, I'm going to miss him so much! And as you can see he is going to Australia mate!!

And here is a picture of him with Kendal, Harrison had just gone through the Temple for the first time. :) Sorry Harrison, I know you didn't like this picture of you, but I think it's cute.

I know he is going to be a great Missionary, and I hope he comes back with an accent! Oh that would be so cute!

Well Harry we are all going to miss your kindness and sense of humor, Love you!!

Pink Sugar Cookies and a Moose tracks Milkshake for ME:)

2011-08-12T21:12:00.003-06:00

I have the greatest friends.
And I am so undeserving of them all.
I hardly ever call. I hardly ever visit.
I hardly ever "check-in" to see how they are doing or if they need anything.
And despite all of my embarrassing inadequacies, they're still here.

A. It's awesome.
and
B. I have got to get my act together.

I Passed!

2011-08-11T16:18:00.003-06:00

On Friday, August 5th, I went "up north" (San Juan County jive for anywhere in the Provo/Salt Lake valley) to take my state board "practical nursing" exam. Preparing for this test was so very stressful. I studied for hours each day this summer and yet still, I walked out of the testing center in tears--110% sure I had failed.
Well, I was 110% wrong!! :) I'm so happy to say I am officially a "Licensed Practical Nurse".

This isn't the end though. I'm still in school and hopefully this time next year, I will be a "Registered Nurse" (and oh how I am dreading that exam!!). But becoming an LPN is still a big milestone that I am very proud of!

Today was a beautiful day...

2011-07-21T21:28:00.004-06:00

...For so many reasons.

I wish I had a big picture of Chase's family to post, because they are what made today so special. I can't believe how much I love them. They are so unbelievable, as a whole and individually. Chase's parents have raised amazing children, and they have all taught us so much about life, love, families, and eternal happiness. He's the only one of his siblings who isn't married yet, and sometimes I get a little overwhelmed because I know I have so much to live up to. But I think that's a good thing, right?

Ineffective Coping r/t Nursing School Stress

2011-07-16T12:20:00.004-06:00

Only 292 days, 21 hours, 31 minutes, and 45 seconds till I graduate.

Pain is Beauty

2011-06-25T21:49:00.002-06:00

So....I waxed my armpits.
My underarms*. That sounds nicer.

It hurt. It bled.
But it was totally worth it.

They look sharp. By sharp I mean smooth.
I like them so much I just want to show people.

If you have a slight hint of masochism in you, and you want some nice summer ready armpits, I highly recommend it.

I know, who seriously blogs about this?
Me.
I do.

From Scratch

2011-06-18T16:47:00.003-06:00

Oh yeah! I jazzed up the ol' blog yesterday. Seriously, does Blogger think their new set up makes things easier?!! It took me about 4 hours to add the Cath Kidston print and dissect the stupid HTML to get my columns, margins, and colors all right. But I am happy with how it turned out. Don't ask me how I made my own layout though... I doubt that I could do it successfully twice.

I wish you were here

2011-06-18T00:05:00.002-06:00

It's like... it's... never mind. Just listen.

Anyways, the thing is, what I really mean.. Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

2011-06-17T23:53:00.004-06:00

I've always adored this song by Elton John. And I absolutely love this cover by Ellie Goulding.

Ellie's voice always makes me cry.

Yes, I know that I'm a strange person.
I like it.

Anyhoo.. Enjoy.

: (

2011-06-17T16:11:00.008-06:00

There have been two nights in the last week that I laid in bed, completely exhausted, but unable to fall asleep.

My mind is always racing. During the day-time this is generally to my benefit because it tends to help me get things done. But when my mind is racing from the late hours of the night through to the wee hours of the morning, it is so frustrating that it never ceases to bring me to tears. Well generally on these sleepless nights, the subjects that keep me from sleep are ones that make me weep off and on throughout the night. But if by chance I haven't had a nice pathetic cry all night, I can count on one royal pity part when I see that light has crept into my bedroom and realize that dawn has begun to break.

I am an insomniac.

I realize there are so many worse, more serious ailments one could suffer....

But I haven't slept in 34 hours so I'm extra emotional and I'm feeling really sorry for myself and it's my blog so lasdkjf;alskdjfa;sldkfj!

formspring.me

2011-06-11T19:51:00.001-06:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/mollybird

Desperate Times, Desperate Measures.

2011-05-30T21:15:00.006-06:00

This is a very delicate subject for me, but I've come to realize that something has to be done, and it has to be done by me. It is a cause that I feel so deeply passionate about, and I can't stand another day trying to ignore that quiet whisper urging me to stand up for what I believe in.

So, after nearly a year of suffering, and knowing that there are others out there like myself trying to ease the pain of what is lost with little debbie snacks, doughnuts, candy bars, and fried chicken, I took this very serious matter into my own hands and wrote to the folks at Meadow Gold. Because If we can't get our beloved Birthday Cake Ice Cream back, then tell me what is life even worth living for?

Dear friends at Meadow Gold,
I'm writing to you because I have fallen into a deep deep skinny depression since you discontinued the amazing Birthday Cake Ice Cream. I understand that it was a "limited edition" product, but what YOU don't understand is just how much happiness it brought into my life. I did my best to purchase and consume as much as I could so that you would see it's success and decide to never discontinue my beloved Birthday Cake Ice Cream, but sadly I failed. Since it disappeared from the shelves of grocery stores, I've tried to find something to replace it, like your Banana Split Ice Cream, and Prozac, but nothing I've found can fill the void my heart and stomach now suffer. I'm begging you, PLEASE, to bring back Birthday Cake Ice Cream; the food that warms my heart and freezes my brain.
Sincerely,
The girl who lost her ice cream thighs,
and wants them back,
Molly Freestone

Skinny Love

2011-05-22T02:04:00.003-06:00

Yes Yes Yes!!
I'm swooning over this Bon Iver cover done by a lovely little girl called Birdy.
Amazing, it is.

Don't be misunderstood though. I love the original. I love Bon Iver.
He does it for me.
mmm.

Consider me back on my Bon Iver kick.

Bwahaha

2011-05-19T14:31:00.004-06:00

I graduated. Well sort of. I finished my first year of nursing school, so I'm a Practical Nurse (PN). ACTUALLY I still need to pass the state boards till I'm a Licensed Practical Nurse (LPN), so that's what I'll be doing this summer. Cramming for boards.

Anyways, I still have one more long year till I will become a Registered Nurse (RN).

So you won't see me shedding any tears of joy or doing any celebration dance till this time next year.

I need a doctor.

2011-04-28T12:15:00.000-06:00

My boyzzz. Em and Dre. It swears. Don't watch it.

Being a Mommy

2011-04-18T19:22:00.003-06:00

Sometimes I wonder, is it worth...

Waking up every 2 hours to feed her in the night.
Or waking up freaked out thinking I had fallen asleep with her still in the bed.
My arms being sore from holding her so much.
Stressing when anyone else other than me is holding her.
Having to hear her cry.

Yes, She is absolutely worth every second of it!!

In the Dark

2011-04-10T00:14:00.003-06:00

Oh Florence, Thank you for this brilliant acoustic version of my favorite song ever made. Ever.

"LALALALALALALALALA"

2011-04-09T10:57:00.004-06:00

Seriously... if one more person gives me the "I told you so" talk,
I'm going to owe them a new set of teeth.

Okay that's not lady-like.
And I'd never punch a person.

I think I'm more of the hair-pulling type.

Poor Me

2011-03-27T20:20:00.003-06:00

My life is really really hard.

And the dark circles have really got to go.

Seriously. Check out this picture that was taken of me yesterday...

21

2011-03-15T22:31:00.006-06:00

Adele's new album '21' is amazing.

Listen to it, okay?

The whole thing. Every damn song is beautiful.

My favorite is Someone Like You. But seriously, you better not stop there.

Her voice, her style, her song writing... she's just fantastic.

That Hair

2011-03-10T22:20:00.004-07:00

It all started with that hair.

Last July, I saw a picture of that hair on a friend's Facebook account, and I told her that I was in love.

And I was. I was absolutely head-over-heels madly in love with that hair.

And that's how it started.

There has been possibly one person more in love with that hair than me, and that is Chase himself. So I really couldn't have been more shocked on Sunday night when he looked at me and said, "I think I'm ready to cut my hair."

The hour that followed that statement is honestly a blur to me, but somehow we ended up in his sister Cambria's salon.

It was bitter-sweet.

I watched as that hair, that beautiful hair that I fell in love with, fell to the floor.

And when it was over, that boy, that beautiful beautiful boy was still there,

and I was absolutely head-over-heels madly in love.

With him.

Vibes

2011-03-09T16:16:00.003-07:00

So one afternoon a few weeks ago, I was holding Chase's sweet little niece, Faith, who is just 6 or 7 months old. She seriously never cries or fusses, I don't even think she poops. Okay, so I'm not raising her or anything so maybe her mum would say otherwise, but she appears to be the perfect baby. So Chase was sitting there with me while I held Chill Baby Faith when his sister Tiffany walked in the room and he asked her, "Hey Tiff, Do you think babies and little kids are influenced by their parent's personalities and moods and the vibes they give off?" And Tiffany said, "Absolutely. Like if I'm calm and happy and not stressed out- my boys totally pick up on that." Then there was a little conversation between them about how it must be important to be level-headed, easy-going, and cheerful when you are a parent because who knows how much your babies are influenced by that. We all agreed, then Chase looked at me with a pondering look and said, "I wonder how our kids will be. Because I'm super chill but you're super high-strung."

Awesome. So the reason I'm telling you all this story is because a very important fact has been established, and that is that I'm going to be a crazy mum that makes crazy rollercoaster babies... and my boyfriend is fully aware of this fact and he still wants to be the father my children.

Where's the most embarrassing place your cell phone has ever gone off?

2011-03-09T14:15:00.001-07:00

I'm pretty good about my phone manners. But my Nana's went off during the family prayer just before they closed the casket at my great-grandma's (her mum's) funeral.... And it took a good 45 seconds for her to fish it out of her cleavage because my mom, me, and my aunt Yadi all had our hands in there trying to grab it too... Not cool.

Ask me anything

What are you most looking forward to right now?

2011-03-06T13:35:00.001-07:00

This week! Spring Break! I have NO plans and I can't wait!! I'll be catching up on my beauty sleep, cleaning and organizing, and baking. I'm in the mood to bake!

Ask me anything

Letting Go 101

2011-02-22T15:21:00.003-07:00

My boyfriend's ex girlfriend is whack.

I want to play dress up...

2011-02-15T21:23:00.002-07:00

I'm dying for an excuse to wear one of these lovely gowns I spotted at the new BHLDN.

As if I wasn't already obsessed with my someday-wedding enough...
throw a little lovey-dovey Valentine's Day in there...
and an irresistable boyfriend...

It's only natural that all I can think about is organza, letterpress, napels, and red velvet armadillo cake.

Pregnant and Happy.

2011-02-08T15:04:00.006-07:00

I can't believe my best friend is going to be a mum in less than a month!

Fat and Happy

2011-02-07T20:39:00.002-07:00

Chase doesn't stop eating. Ever.
It's cool. He's a skinny boy.
The only problem is that when he eats, I eat.
So basically...
Molly doesn't stop eating either.
And it's not pretty.

The other day he poured heavy whipping cream over his frosted flakes. Right after devouring a Freschetta pizza... with my help.

Seriously. Heavy whipping cream, over frosted flakes.
TRY IT.

I've gotta gotta gotta see this! 3 gotta's.

2010-11-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

Baby Kendal

2010-11-16T10:45:00.003-07:00

Her name is Kendal,

She is going to be adorable!!!! Can I say that??

Her name is spelled Kendal not Kendall!! We are naming her after the town in England.

Her due date is March 4th, 2011

I love her.

-Madison

The dog I want

2010-11-16T10:33:00.002-07:00

I've decided the new dog I want is a Bulldog.

You can ask anyone I have a fascination with Midgits.... I think a bulldog is the equivalent to a midget but for dogs.

So cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Madison

2010-11-02T22:04:00.000-06:00

It is what it is.

2010-11-02T21:44:00.001-06:00

Bring back the sad tunes...
I'm missing my boy.

2010-10-21T19:15:00.000-06:00

Really though.

2010-10-21T19:14:00.001-06:00

Sad music doesn't suit me lately.

2010-10-04T22:45:00.003-06:00

I need more of this.

Because I'm happy.

(sidenote: I dare you to dare me to sing every word for you. I can. Not cause I know french.. simply because I've listened to this song 486,000 times-ish.)

Confession #246

2010-09-26T15:18:00.002-06:00

I don't go into relationships with out first checking to see if myself and homeboy are astrologically compatible.

I know it's just nonsense...

but I have to say... My sign fits me so well.

Not ashamed.

2010-09-20T22:23:00.001-06:00

I've got a real thing for dramatic teeny bopper music.

And I love this. LOVE it.

No one asks you questions but me, and mine aren't even questions. More like comments. Quit threatening to never fill my void !

2010-09-13T19:40:00.001-06:00

It's as if.. no one cares... let's both be saddened by this fact. tehe

Ask me anything

2010-09-11T15:13:00.001-06:00

2010-09-08T21:42:00.002-06:00

STOP IT or I'LL BLOG ABOUT IT.

How To Be Alone

2010-08-29T13:52:00.000-06:00

I found this creative and lovely little poem on my pretty friend Zaida's blog.
And I stole it.
Cause I just love it.

I haven't always loved lonely.... only since I moved back home have I discovered the peace and serenity that one can feel when no one else is there.

raspy.

2010-08-25T22:18:00.002-06:00

I'm kind of obsessed with LISSIE today...
well...minus the facials.
I have had "Everywhere I Go" on repeat all day long.

And well... I love Lady Gaga covers. So this of course made me smile.

This makes me feel a lot less lame...

2010-08-25T17:03:00.001-06:00

2010-08-25T16:49:00.005-06:00

For dinner tonight, I'm going to have a box of these:

Mashed up with a carton of this:

And I think I will curl up on the couch with my cuddle-snug Ruby Tuesday and watch this:

and then this:

I'm fine. I'm fine.

The blues.

2010-08-12T13:05:00.004-06:00

My weekend is off to a terrible start... and it's only Thursday!
Tomorrow, I'm road-tripping over to Las Vegas with a group of girls to attend Nolan & Emily's wedding. This trip has been planned for about 6 months... so how could anything possibly go wrong, right? Wrong.
For starters, I've spent the last two weeks starving myself so that people wouldn't vomit at the site of me in a bathing suit... then today-- the day before I leave-- I thought, "To heck with it... grocery store deli cheese sticks? Yes please. How many? All of them."
THEN, I was looking at my bank account online- just to see what I was working with- and realized I didn't receive my direct deposit that I should have received 2 days ago.
THEN, I tried on the dress I am borrowing FROM Emily to wear at her wedding-- and was reminded that I have the boobies of a stinking 12 year old.
FLIP!

Well... if all else fails (which it probably will) I am at least happy to see my friends getting married. Nolan and Emily are PERFECT for each other and I love them both so much. Hooray!

Avett Brothers

2010-08-10T12:51:00.003-06:00

A friend of mine, Dave Brewer, introduced me to the Avett Brothers over a year ago... but it was only today that I realized what a sight for sore eyes this dandy duo is. I call the one with short hair and scruff.

shedding

2010-08-10T11:29:00.005-06:00

AHH! I'm losing all my hair! Seriously, at this rate-- I will be bald LONG before I get to the point of husband hunting.
Mum, with out this hair treatment, I will go bald. And whatever chance you had of having grandbabies (from me) will be lost-- because nobody will want to marry a bald Molly. So go here: Stylebell.com and save your grandbabies!

motherhood.

2010-08-08T00:11:00.003-06:00

At a very young age I began to worry about what kind of a mother I would grow up to be. I remember my own mum spending all of her time (and money) at Dillards in MY department. Whatever time she DID spend in her department was absolute torture on me. That's when I started to wonder if I could ever possibly master the art of motherhood-- and actually enjoy spending my therapeutic mall time, as well as my hard earned money, on someone besides myself. It seemed doubtful, even when my mum assured me that there was a time in her life when nothing brought her more joy than indulging herself with a pricey pair of shoes.

Fortunately, (and to my surprise) I've discovered before even having a child of my own, that I will do just fine learning to spoil someone besides myself. How do I know this you ask?
One word.
Ruby.I can't seem to help it. It's the same out-of-control feeling I used to get as I walked through Nordstrom. Gourmet dog treats, vitamins, expensive shampoo, chew toys, and hair accessories have taken over my debit card. For crying out loud, I've even purchased an ottoman so that Ruby can climb on my bed with out straining herself. From her overpriced dog tag that I got on Etsy (Hello, it has a cute little 'ruby' charm), to filet mignon dog treats, Ruby Tuesday is living the life.
And I am broke.
BUT so relieved to know I'm not going to grow up that horrible, heartless mother I've always feared I'd become.

Hi it's Madi and this is my Baby! :)

2010-08-03T14:54:00.003-06:00

My baby is now the size of a fig. I don't believe i've ever eaten a fig before, so this might be a good time to try one.

Will and I are both very excited!

I've had morning sickness 5 times, and nauseous everyday. But it will all be worth it! I know 11 weeks is a little pre-mature to be telling everyone! but my mother can't keep her mouth shut either way so we decided to just let it be...

I feel bigger, but no weight gain yet.. In your face molls! Anyways we are very excited, and I know molly is excited too.

Love,
Madison

rubber blubber

2010-07-23T00:46:00.004-06:00

BP? BP oil spill? I realized just how "deeply superficial" I have become when I thought Brass Plum (of Nordstrom) spilled oil somewhere. I have only one comment. "Dear Nordstrom, I am sorry that, for even a split second, I let myself believe you had done something terrible. You are flawless. Love you forever, M."
Alright... seriously, I promise I'm not THAT shallow. I've known about the oil spill. And it's just breaking my heart. I keep waiting, and waiting, and waiting for it to be over..... I can't even fathom how significant the damages are. Such a sad sad event in history.....

along with the loss of Molly's Magnificent Malibu...

WHAT?!

2010-07-16T17:53:00.003-06:00

While searching the net for a news article dealing with geriatrics and health care blah blah blah....
I somehow stumbled upon this:

Um... Are you stinking kidding me?!
110?!?! Where have I been? I thought the oldest person to live was like 103 or something..... 110!?! And her daughter is 85!! If I were that daughter I would be praying for my fathers genes right about now...
No offense to the elderly... I'm sure being an 80 year old gramma has it's perks.... But does 110 come with ANY perks??

#$@%&*

2010-07-14T21:53:00.003-06:00

So... I have a swearing problem.
There. I said it.

No but seriously.... there was a time, not that long ago, when I would tattle-tell on the neighbor boys for using the h-word.
Now, many "swear words" are apart of my vocabulary. I can't pin-point when it happened. But somehow, I became a full-fledged "swear word user".

I'm not proud of it. I don't think it makes me more appealing in anyway. I know it doesn't. In no group of people (that I have ever associated with) is it attractive for a girl to swear. And being one who cares so much about appearance and approval, it makes absolutely no sense that I ever developed such a habit.

So... that is why I made myself a new resolution. I have decided to quit swearing. So far, all I have to say is, it is much easier said than done. But I am taking my goal very seriously, and I am doing pretty good. I've designated two substitute words to fall back on; Stink, and Curses.
ie.
CURSES! I forgot my homework.
I am so stinking angry.
That girl is such a stinker.
Oh stink!
Stinking Curse!
Stinking stink!
Cursing Curse!
(etc.)

So.... that's that. Wish me luck.

i love you molly! (even if just from your blog! haha) whats your favorite thing about youself?

2010-07-06T18:48:00.001-06:00

You are so sweet. I think you are just adorable!! Hmm. It used to be my teeth. I wore braces for 5 years and I had some great teeth in my mouth. But I wasn't good about wearing my retainer so the bottom row isn't so great now:( After that, I'm not sure... and it's making me emo to realize I like so very little about myself as far as looks and personality.... hm.. I have dainty wrists... teeny tiny bony baby wrists. I love them.

Gosh this is depressing.

Ask me anything

Alexis Olivia Maxfield

2010-06-30T13:05:00.005-06:00

This little sweet pea arrived on Thursday, June 24th, 2010 at 4:50 p.m.
Good thing it was an induced labor, because baby Lexi came in to the world weighing
8 lbs. 8 oz., and 19 in. in length.
Congratulations to my sister by proxy, Jennifer, her hubsy Cassidy, and to the new big brother Boston!!

Thank you so much Jenn and Cass for having me be apart of this! It was one of the most amazing things I have ever beheld. I realize baby's come into the world everyday, but many people go a lifetime without ever witnessing such a special miraculous event. And thank you to Cass for getting a little too gun-shy to cut the umbilical cord.... I was more than happy to take over. I think the Doctor and nurses were a little creeped out by my enthusiasm and interest in everything going on down there. It just made me so much more excited about becoming a nurse. And while I have mostly had my eye on working in the E.R's and O.R's, This experience made me just as eager to work in Labor and Delivery. Hopefully I will get to dip my toes in all of units/wards during my clinicals so that I can really find my "nitch".

I wish terribly that I had more pictures to post but I used Jenn's camera for the majority of the time, and she has not been able to upload them yet.

PUUUUSH

2010-06-23T20:47:00.000-06:00

Cass painted Jenn's toenails for her.

Now that is love.

2010-06-20T22:27:00.001-06:00

2010-06-20T21:48:00.000-06:00

2010-06-20T21:40:00.001-06:00

Posture

2010-06-16T12:43:00.002-06:00

I'm guilty of all of these.
So unattractive.

Wy-wy and Sparky

2010-06-15T21:40:00.000-06:00

I was just surfing through some old videos and stumbled upon this. I miss my babes so much! I can't believe it's been nearly two years since I moved to Mexico to Nanny the two cutest little boys that ever lived!

Somewhere

2010-06-15T11:59:00.004-06:00

Here is the trailor for Sofia Coppola's latest film.

Even if it ends up being totally over our heads, seemingly pointless, and incredibly boring, it will still be one of the greatest movies ever, because it's the work of Sofia Coppola. She could make a film about poop and it would be great.
And yes, that stunning little child star is Elle Fanning, sister to Dakota Fanning. Did you realize they both played little Daisy at different ages in Benjamin Button? I think they BOTH could be just as successful supermodels as they are actresses.

Can I just say? You, without fail and blowing away all competition, make my day. :)

2010-06-14T01:12:00.001-06:00

Gosh! YOU just made mine.

Ask me anything

getting high.

2010-06-13T20:26:00.002-06:00

Well, I've been painting my room. So far so good. Except for the perma-headache I am suffering from. Ibuprofen doesn't even touch it. I get headaches daily, but they are always easily cured with some good ol' ibuprofen. It is very rare that I get a headache that I have to endure and going through this experience right now, makes me realize just how much of a wimp I really am. Because I am just miserable.
Umm... Am I even making any sense right now? I need some air.
Later.

so guess whaah....

2010-06-09T23:36:00.004-06:00

I love Lil Wayne. Yep.
I also adore Eminem. Uh-huh.
I realize this is just despicable to you. But this post isn't about me, or you. It's about your two mini-sweet-bro-basketball-obsessed-jocks that you are raising.
I just thought I would give you a heads up.
Sweet-bro-basketball-obsessed-jocks LOVE Rap/Hip Hop. I realize that I am stereotyping; and in general, I do not condone that. But, well, it is what it is.
Just yesterday Jake looked at me and said, that I was "piss-poor morally"... Don't worry, I explained to him that this phrase was very crude. With-in the same hour, Matt sang "put your arm on ice"... by the tune I knew he meant, "Patron' on ice"....
(Obviously they are on a T.I. kick right now).
But I'm telling you now, one day it's T.I., and the next it's that whack-job Eminem... Who, despite it all, I still love.
I think I will convert his bum to the LDS church, help him get over his issues with his Mum and ex-wife Kim, and teach Haley and Laney that they shouldn't talk the way Daddy talks.
The End.

Wait. One more thing.
I've been thinking, considering, the idea of NOT blogging OR facebooking
for two years (which is when I finish school)...
No but seriously...
Now I'm just thinking about it. I haven't made any decisions. The reason I am toying with this idea is because I feel like I have lost touch with reality because of this virtual world I live in-- combined with the fact that I LITERALLY don't live in the same world as many people I care about. It's like I'm there, but not really. I just linger in peoples lives with out any progression in any of my relationships; not just boys, but friends and family too.
Maybe it would be best if I take that break, and dedicate myself completely to my schooling, and to being physically and emotionally healthy; What if, in two years, I could start over; move away from blessed Monti to a modern civilization, start using hair product and wearing make up again, and get a healthy fresh start with both new and old relationships. Maybe, just maybe, I could really leave all my baggage behind, and forgive myself for all the mistakes I have made in my lifetime. Maybe I could take the good qualities that I could not have acquired with out my trial and error, and really succeed in life.
Maybe the people that hold grudges against me could forgive me, or even just forget about me... Maybe I'd be able to face them with out hating myself. Maybe I'd be able to face them and not give a damn.
I don't know.
I think I'll ask my therapist what she thinks.

(Hey look. The picture fits both subjects)

what is the scariest thing about boys?

2010-06-02T17:50:00.001-06:00

I am intimidated by the fact that they don't play the same games girls play.... (not saying they don't play games, because they do) But finding the thin line between losing their interest and coming on too strong is a difficult task that seriously stresses me out. I don't know if that really answers this question though.... sorry. Let's try again... hm.. Okay! Always worrying about how my personality, figure, face, style, etc. compares to their dream girl, whether that be a super model or an ex-girlfriend. I've obviously got some esteem issues. haha.

Ask me anything

Pillar of Salt

2010-05-25T12:09:00.008-06:00

Each year since my return back home to Monti, it is when Summer rolls around that I turn a little blue. It pains me to be reminded just how boring my life is, and what I am missing out on.
Once again, The Summer Twilight Concert Series line-up has me aching for some SLC. To make it more painful, they are switching venues from The Gallivan Center, to Pioneer Park. Pioneer Park and Molly go way back.
Dear Mum, I want to be 4 again.
Art by KatHannah

2010 Twilight Concert Series
July 8 - August 26, 2010
Free Admission
Presented by the Salt Lake City Arts Council

July 8: Modest Mouse w/Avi Buffalo
July 15: Girl Talk w/Memory Tapes
July 22: Beirut w/Twin Sister
July 29: The New Pornographers w/ the Dodos
August 5: Sharon Jones and the Dap Kings w/ Jamie Lidell
August 12: Matisyahu w/ TBA
August 19: Big Boi w/Chromeo
August 26: She & Him w/Dum Dum Girls

POST EDIT: I stand corrected. I have no idea what I am even talking about, obviously. Pioneer Park means nothing to my childhood. It is Sugarhouse Park that we love(d).

Dear Mum,

2010-05-25T11:35:00.002-06:00

You're very welcome. I know how much you enjoy sleeping with Ruby on the rare occasion that I allow it. That is why, last night, moments after she threw up on my floor, I decided it was a good night to sacrifice her for your pleasure. I hope you both slept cuddly and warm.
Your loving daughter,
Molly Belle

Whatever happened to boredom?

2010-05-20T16:03:00.007-06:00

It's not that I've run out of things to ramble about...

I'm simply too exhausted.
But hey, if you are one of those lucky people who DOES get to experience boredom this summer, which I think it is safe to assume if you are actually reading my blog, check this out!
So neat!

whats your favorite dessert? :)

2010-05-12T18:28:00.001-06:00

GOOD question Leighana!
Hands down--
Waldorf Astoria Red Velvet Cake.
OMG. Have you had it? If not, you must!!!!!!!!! It is quite a challenge to make the frosting but absolutely totally one hundred and fifty percent worth it.

Ask me anything

Seriously...

2010-05-11T22:00:00.000-06:00

I am surrounded by idiots.

Thanks, Mum.

2010-04-27T11:47:00.000-06:00

d-day.

2010-04-24T22:21:00.005-06:00

Being as "anti-marriage" as I am right now, I realize the foolishness behind my obsession with my "someday wedding."
Seriously, I'm already embarrassed for my "someday husband" to discover that I have everything planned out, and have had since the day I decided whether his last name would look better embossed or letter-pressed....So basically, since the day I met him.
I promise I'm not alter hungry. Really, it's quite the opposite.
But it's undeniable.
A wedding is a lovely, lovely occasion.
With cake.
And sexy time afterward.

Well, I take that back; A wedding CAN be lovely.
Sometimes it's... entertaining (not in a good way).

I enjoy both.
Because I have that a small bit of catty blood in me....just a small bit.

mum's the word.

2010-04-23T11:32:00.003-06:00

It's not my fault. I was drinking this crap from my sippie cups! I can't stop.... worst of all, I don't even WANT to stop.
When I graduated from high school and moved away from Monti, I quit. For two years I was clean. I didn't even miss it.
So how did it get to this? I don't even know. But if I don't get a diet coke right now, something bad is going to happen.
They really need to start making debit card friendly vending machines.

I'm not usually one to FORGET to brag...

2010-04-21T19:59:00.004-06:00

I don't know how I went this long (5 days) with out "blogging" about this...
Well..... I got in! I don't know what the Nursing Department has been smoking, but it can't be good..

All jokes aside, I'm really happy about this. I'm proud of myself! I've never worked this hard for something and had it pay off. I needed this. It feels great.